I’ve written many poems in my life, but never had the courage to show or post it for anyone to see, so in my new mantra of trying new things and taking risks, I’ve decided to share this little one.
It started coming to shape in my head in one of my many walks from the airplane to the baggage claim, while I was listening to Teddy Geiger’s song “For You I Will” and it sort of just came to life. Little by little I breathed more soul to it, and I was able to finish it tonight. So I hope you enjoy it and that maybe it touches you like it touched me.
“The Only One” Girl
By Fernanda Lemos
I’m the girl in a music video,
the one who walks around with distant eyes and a distracted smile.
A thousand worlds inhabit her mind,
but she can’t seem to fit into the one she lives in.
I’m the girl who people say that she should experience more of life,
but who, perhaps, just feels and sees life in a different perspective than everyone else.
I’m the girl in a portrait,
frozen in space and time as if she doesn’t belong here,
or there, nor anywhere.
I’m the girl in an adventure book,
strong and fierce, but not quite real,
not quite tangible, and somehow quite damaged.
I’m the girl whose eyes can scare you,
because they carry the weight of all the expectations her mouth can’t pronounce.
I’m the girl that tries to pretend she doesn’t believe in love,
but who secretly hurts with how the world seems to have forgotten all about the magic of it.
I’m the girl that cries alone in her bedroom about her loss,
but who you will see smiling and pretending to be okay,
because she refuses to look weak.
I’m the girl who feels as if she wasn’t good enough,
when you were more than enough for her.
As if she lacked a secret ingredient,
always blend, always overlooked.
I’m this girl,
I’m that girl,
I’m any girl,
But I’m never “the only one” girl.